My word it is late.! I have finally just managed to get online after a huge storm removed AOL’s (look don’t say it because I already know what you are thinking but I hate change so I am staying for the moment) ability to log onto the net so I went out for a drink instead. Watched the rain HAMMERING like hell down and the huge blue flashes lighting u the sky. Amazing but it still makes me want to hide under a rug. I was walking down the pier when it started and the sudden realisation that I was a) alone and had no one to squeeze in fright, b) wet (down boy.!) and c) on a huge metal damn pier, made me more than a little nervous, but I needed the loo and to kill a short time so there I was.
So how did today go… well no improvement I am afraid and towards the end it just got a little bizarre, ok a lot bizarre.!!
Once again I find myself living for the weekend. At least Blondie might be out this Friday, something to take my head away from my confused thoughts and just enjoy the three hours I see her for instead, a cheap thrill but what else do I have. At least it allows me a brief moment of blackness to try and forget my troubles. I am not normally a depressing person but of late it has taken a hold. Heyho… tomorrow is another day and I’ll treat each one as I get there from now on.
Oh and ALL my decisions are based on heads or tails now…. seriously, so if I start doing odd things it because I have been following a new pattern to get my life back on track.
When in Rome. 